Sunday, December 13, 2009
thanksgiving
why is it so hard to focus at times when i have to?
and why is it that i cant seem to do work when i know i have to?
feeling so helpless when my body is not acting the way i want it to behave
how desperate can that be?
had the rehearsal today and it was awesome
missed the presence of sweetheart so much!
we seemed so bonded that i could literally feel him even when we're not around each other
that closeness that God has blessed us with,
i really thank God for that (:
indeed, How Great is Our God! (:
and i seemed so burdened to invite ppl for the christmas eve/christmas celebration and the watchnight service
May the Lord bless the people around me as i ask around
though i know i'll face rejections, i'll still use the zest that God has given me to be a blessing to others.
i truely hope that many will be blessed in this coming season of greetings (:
and its only till today that i realised how much i love to sing
so much so that all the troubles could be washed away when im singing
i really thank God for this and i do hope that this'll be a start of a new breakout for me (:
plentiful of thanksgiving towards the Almighty God! (:
I Love God!
I Love Everyone!
*love could easily fill up the emptiness in my heart
always remembered, 11:56 PM
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
work harder!!
So many things happened today, both good and bad
After the unhappy incident with the lady at yishun's ticketing office,
I hadnt felt so angry before!
and the hormonal imbalance made it worst because of the monthly thing.
Oh gosh! couldnt help it but burst out crying in public because of the bad customer service from the ticketing office.
So disappointed with the lady
So disappointed with myself
So disappointed at that ah peh! i finally understood what was the meaning of "monkey see monkey do" when he threw his flyer ON THE FLOOR along with 20 OVER PIECES ALREADY ON THE FLOOR! i cant believe my eyes when i actually saw that RIGHT BEFORE MY EYES!
wake up people! why cant u have a little compassion to your own surroundings by throwing it INTO THE BIN!?
And apparently, some people simply dont care after they've knocked so hard by the shoulders and elbow
Isnt it basic courtesy to say sorry?
Utterly disappointed...
despite all the unhappiness,
God is so good!
He bless me with a surprise at khatib that i saw wt,zoe and melissa today! (:
though it was just a short while,
we had a great talk tgt (:
thank you Lord! (:
i borrowed a few books today to help me in the making of the flipbook,
really hope my plan will work put well
but in order to achieve the making,
i must first finish up the drawings.
it may not be perfect, but the colourings must be good enough to show the animation
shall post the video of the flipbook once im done with it by friday (:
so excited about the finish look! (:
shall endure 2 days of sleepless nights to complete this work ):
nevertheless, for a good piece of work, its worth it..
JYJYJY!! (:
good gracious! i can only take 185 more photos and my camera memory is full
i need a memory card for my camera!
save up! ):
JIA YOU babe! study hard and we'll go out soon! (:
always remembered, 9:14 PM
Saturday, December 5, 2009
fantasy & reality
am i just thinking too much or i've really no confidence in life
often, i ask myself if i have friends to hang out with, friends that listens, friends that'll be there
when i look into my life,
there are just so many different kind of people that God has placed around me
He wants me to learn to forgive and accept them as who they are and not to judge them
i love them and i want them to have that close relationship with God so that they can live a more meaningful life
its not the first time being pinpointed, but everytime i found out/felt like it, it hurts me so badly
is it that im not a good person that's why people that i know are doing this to me?
like cherlyn said,
there are ups and downs in life
and perhaps its another one that i should learn how to accept and continue life
as a person,
the thing i fear most is losing sense of secure
i have one in mind and we will always be at this state
its such an intangible relationship with her and i really thank God for her (:
its so weird that we feel so much about each other, as if we were couples
i just miss her alot ):
i really thank babe alot
for always being there
i feel so much better after talking (:
thanks babe (:
have fun in the camp & be careful k
love ya (:
always remembered, 12:09 AM
Friday, December 4, 2009
hang on!
tons of work to do
plenty of rest needed
i only slp an avg of 4 hours everyday
so tired...
i really wonder if we are able to finish all these on time
it will be possible if i miss GB and rehearsal
but i have to go for the drill test commanding and im still deciding whether to stay for the games. if i do stay, i'll feel so super guilty for not using the time to do my work instead.
and there's rehearsal this sunday if im not wrong
how to do work? ):
so little time, so many things
i need to rush all my work
i need to find time to go for a swim
i need to watch my unhealthy eating habits
i need to work fast in order to rest more
i need to plan my time well or else i'll end up handing in late/rush work
i need to commit every single thing unto the Lord because i cant do it all on my own
more sleepless nights
literally dont have to slp
im getting used to this kinda unhealthy lifstyle already
What a sad thing ):
always remembered, 10:11 PM
